Your Third Peek Beneath the Duct Tape: A Tenpack of Trixies

This time I'm going to give you a bit more background on A Tenpack of Trixies. In the introduction to that story, I mentioned that it all started with a dream in which I was the first in a line of identical slavegirls, walking hand-in-hand, pressed tightly together, as the Trixies are in the opening scene of my story (and as the Stepford Cuckoos almost are in this pic I posted once before). There wasn't much more to the dream than that; I had to craft the rest of the story the hard way, with my conscious mind.

But there is another piece to the puzzle which I've only revealed to a couple of people before now. Not often, but occasionally, I model certain characters on real-life actors and actresses. For instance, I've already told you that John Dominic in What Do You Give the Man Who Has Everything? is really Jude Law; and somewhere down the line I'll tell you about Penelope and Daphne in Raggedy Anne (Here I go, teasing you again. Sorry, I just can't help myself. ;-)).

But maybe you've guessed whom Nicole and Naomi are based on already. After all, I didn't even change their first names or their physical appearances. And Nicole Kidman and Naomi Watts are famously...chummy...in real life, as this site will attest. I'll just give you a few thumbnails of some of the tastiest pics here; if you want the larger versions (in some cases, much larger), just follow the link. Trust me, it's worth the trip. ;-)

My Secret Identity

All those superheroes you see in movies and read about in comic books, the ones who have so much angst about leading a double life? Well, I think I know how they feel. Here I am, a notorious writer of the kinkiest sort of lesbian fetish porn, yet in real life I come across more like a human-sized hobbit. I even look like a hobbit, if you subtract a few inches and add some hairy feet. I love eating and laughter and avoid risk whenever possible. I'm the kind of person people feel embarrassed to curse around. My boss calls me "darlin'" - and not in a sexual way. I go to church (a very liberal one with a mostly gay congregation) and take my faith very seriously.

But again, here I am, a notorious writer of the kinkiest sort of lesbian fetish porn.

Only four people know me in both my identities: a former girlfriend who quickly got squicked out by my writing; the love of my life, who thinks my stories are hot as hell; and two longtime e-mail friends with kinks of their own. But sometimes it's hard not exposing my secret to anyone else. Oh, I cover my tracks pretty thoroughly on my computer; the problem is, sometimes I just find myself wanting to tell someone. A male coworker who knows I'm gay will point out a pretty woman and ask what I think of her, and I'll have to bite my tongue to keep from saying, "Oh, she's cute enough, but she's no Susan Wayland." Or I'll be watching a movie with a friend or family member, and an MC element will creep into the plot, and I'll suddenly feel stark-naked exposed even though I'm careful not to move a muscle. Or someone will curse in front of me and then apologize, or gasp when I let slip a "damn"; and I'll stifle a giggle as I think, "If they only knew how I talk in my stories."

For years I've thought of myself as a closet exhibitionist. The fact is, I want people to know the truth about me, even as I dread their finding out. I'm so conflicted that I've even hidden variations of my real name in a couple of my stories (And no, I'm not going to tell you which ones).

Who's Peter Parker's therapist? I need to look him or her up.

Premonitory Mind-Reading

In my last entry, one of the links I offered up for your free fetish fix was DVS's gallery on Model Mayhem. What I didn't have a chance to mention then was that among the hundred pics in his gallery are a number that are categorized as zentai but actually look more latex total enclosure. I don't normally find zentai all that exciting because the material does nothing for me, but I certainly do like what these models are wrapped in. And doesn't this pic look almost exactly like the last scene from Queen Bee Becomes a Drone? It's almost as though the photographer read my mind before I had the thought.



If you're in a hurry, the zentai/latex pics are mostly on page 4, with a few more on page 5 and one on page 1 (which also has a couple of delightful tentacle shots).

Oh, and while we're here, just let me add that the writing is going very, very well. :-)

Free Fetish Stuff

I hate to pay for my fetish fix, and I'm sure you do, too. So as promised, here's my post on some of the sources I've found for quality free material. If anyone else has anything to add, feel free to post a comment. :-)

Deviant Art
Let's start with Deviant Art. I've mentioned it before, but it bears repeating. You have to know what you're looking for there; otherwise, you end up wading through a lot of crap. But try doing a search on any of the big name fetish models, and you'll come up with a ton of great images. Look to your right for links directly to some of my favorite model and photographer pages. NOTE: you do have to register if you want to see the adult material, but you don't have to give much info at all; and of course, you can always make something up. You didn't hear that from me. ;-)

Specific Models
Ulorin Vex's website is still free as of this writing, and I've recently found another cute young fetish model calling herself (stifles giggle) Sister Sinister with a free website. She's a bit pretentious, but very attractive. Her galleries start here. Then there's Aradia Ador's site, La Petite Coquette. I've only just now discovered her, but I certainly like what I see. Lastly, here's a very definitely unofficial Masuimi Max gallery with a nice variety of pics.

One Model Place
One Model Place has a bunch of Darenzia photos, as well as some much shorter pages for a number of other fetish models; but I'm not linking to their pages here because they're hardly worth visiting. Also, the site's search function doesn't work properly. Your best bet if you're looking for someone in particular is to Google "onemodelplace" and the model's name.


Model Mayhem
Model Mayhem has free pages of pics for many fetish artists, including Kumi Monster, Hollywood Geisha, Scar, Pia Kaamos,Slinka, and Darenzia - and those are just the ones I've found so far; one link leads to another, and you could go on forever. Oh, and they also feature various photographers and fashion designers, too. HINT: If you see an "n/a" on a gallery page where a thumbnail should be and you're curious to see what you're missing, just click on the thumbnail before or after the "n/a" and then use the "prev" or "next" link.

Alter Ego
Alter Ego has extensive galleries for a number of top fetish models - as well as a number of fetish models you've never heard of. You can look at just so many pics before you have to register, and then you're asked to give a lot of personal information; but again, you can just make something up. And when they ask you for a picture, just throw them any old JPG of anything - they don't really check in spite of what they say; I uploaded my usual Sorayama gynoid avatar, and they've never called me on it. Anyway, here's the link to the gallery list.

Fashion Sites
Latex designer sites are another good place to find free pics, and many of them use people like Bianca, Kumi and Darenzia to model their designs. Here are some of my favorites: Ego Assassin, Fierce Couture, Fraulein Ehrhardt, HW Design, Jane Doe Latex, Vex Clothing, and of course the justly famous Marquis.

Photographers
Some fetish photographers also have free sites, like Gil Perron (one here and another one here) and Martin Perreault. Maxime Avet has a website that's not working properly at the moment (here, if you want to try anyway), but he also has a page on Model Mayhem here. DVS has a page on Model Mayhem, too, as well as an independent website here which has many more pics - and lots of other stuff, as well. Viva Van Story has just opened for business with this website, which should appeal to fetishists of several different stripes. Finally, Hypnox has a whole lot of stuff that's very definitely not to my taste (though it might be to yours), but he does have a few "ohhhh woooowwwww" pics like this one, so I felt he was worth recommending.

Argh
Finally, there's Free Ones. I almost hate to recommend this site because it has all the ambience of Beavis and Butthead's gym locker, but it really is a great source for hundreds of free pics of pretty much anyone you can name: fetish models, porn stars, celebrities. I'll save you at least a little bit of ickiness by linking you directly to the pages of some of my favorite models: Ancilla Tilia, Bianca Beauchamp, Darenzia, Kumi Monster, Masuimi Max, and Susan Wayland.

*dusts hands* Okay, now that that's out of the way (and believe me, I spent a good two weeks putting it all together), it's back to story writing. I had the most amazing MC dream a few weeks ago, and my Muse is now blowing seductively in my ear. I'll keep trying to blog at least once a week until the story is done, but if you don't hear from me for awhile, you'll know what's happening.

For Your Tentacled Amusement

Here's a fun little bonus post for the week. Last night I was poking around on Model Mayhem in preparation for an upcoming blog entry on where to go for free fetish stuff, and somewhere along the line I stumbled across this bizarre display by a model calling herself Nicotine:



Well, being a Sorayama fan, I couldn't help but be reminded of this pic, and Iwondered if Nicotine and her photographer had it in mind when they fashioned their own little bit of octopoid erotica.



And then, being a Lovecraft fan, I couldn't help but follow a link from Nicotine's picture to another page on Model Mayhem labeled Cthulhu Lhust. And then, being a Neil Gaiman fan, I couldn't help being reminded of a hilarious case of author cross-pollination called I Cthulhu.

So there you go: three or four fetishes for the price of one. Enjoy.

Another Peek Beneath the Duct Tape: Spellbound

I think it's about time I talked about my first foray into writing for the EMCSA, Spellbound. When I wrote this one, I was still pretty new at being a lesbian and even newer at the world of online erotica; and though even today I think it's one of my best stories, my inexperience does show through in a few places. Still, that story uncorked nearly three decades' worth of private fantasies, so it's no wonder it packs a punch.

When I sent it in, though, I had absolutely no idea how it would be received. There didn't seem to be any other stories like mine on the EMCSA. I mean, really: fairies as mind controllers? Those flitty little winged creatures who like to perch on flowers? I didn't know if anyone else would see the eroticism in them, or if they'd all find the story a) artsy-fartsy or b) just plain silly. I was extremely pleased and relieved when several people complimented me on the old MC Forum and by e-mail.

The story itself has complicated roots, the earliest being a scene in a 1980's horror movie called The Believers. The movie was about a voodoo-like cult whose members sacrificed their firstborn children for some reason I can't quite remember and were trying to get Martin Sheen to do the same. The cult leader was a spooky-looking young African guy whose eyes turned white when he used his mystical powers (I was turned on by that look even then). Anyway, there was a single MC scene somewhere in the middle of the movie. It's been a long time and I'm probably misremembering it, but this is what I recall. The heroine, played by Helen Shaver, is in the middle of a ring of cult members with the Big Bad Guy in the center. There's music - probably drums - and he starts to dance and do his eye thing while focusing intently on her. Helen begins to blink and sway, falling under his spell (To my shame, I can't remember whether her eyes roll up, too, or whether she just looks dazed). Unfortunately, they get interrupted before we find out what the bad guy had planned for her, but it was a hot scene while it lasted.

Well, that was the earliest root of "Spellbound." Later I fantasized privately about African witch doctors and snakes and things like that. Callidus understands the attraction there.

Then I realized I was gay and re-imagined the MC'er as a woman, and then I began to re-think the method of MC in the fantasy to make it even hotter. I tend to avoid real-life forms of MC like hypnosis in my stories because I don't think the depth of control I enjoy can be achieved without an element of the supernatural or advanced technology. This particular fantasy had always relied on the former, and I have read a few novels through the years where fairies or elves came across as erotic and powerful; so who better to be my domme than Titania, Queen of the Fairies? And how better to picture her than this? (Okay, so that's actually a picture of Luthien from The Silmarillion, but it did inspire me in writing "Spellbound.")

Yes, you've found me out: I'm a secret Tolkien geek. But just look what I've done with the Professor's handiwork!

Water Balloons

You can't help noticing, after you've looked at a bit of fetish art, that many of the models take after their vanilla porn (if there is such a thing) counterparts in chasing after that plasticized Barbie look. Unfortunately, I hate that look. Fake boobs like the ones Bianca Beauchamp is so famous for just look like water balloons to me, totally unappealing. And when the model's areolas are oversized too, I actually feel slightly nauseated.

Okay, yes, I had a subscription to Bianca Beauchamp's site for awhile; but trust me, it wasn't because I wanted to see her tits. It was the latex and rubber I was after; and anyway, her breasts don't look quite so unnatural when they're covered.

Susan Wayland is a bit better. Her breasts aren't unnaturally large, though she's obviously had some work done; and although her areolas are too big to be natural, they're at least pale enough that I can ignore them. And again, I like them best when they're covered with something shiny. ;-)

But really, what I want to see are totally natural breasts, even if they're a bit on the small side. That's one reason I enjoy Kumi Monster and Ulorin Vex so much; their bodies are clearly all natural (well, aside from the tattoos on one and the dyed hair on the other ;-) But those don't bother me.). Then there's blackfantastix, whom I discovered on Deviant Art. Here's a little sampling of all three to tide you over until my next "Peek Beneath the Duct Tape" post.