"There he is, putting his head up a cow's vagina"

Does this ever happen to you? You're watching a movie or TV show with subtitles, and you're trying to follow them so that you can understand what people are saying; but at the same time, what's happening on the rest of the screen is so damn fascinating that you can't bear not to give it your full attention. That's definitely the case here. I'm going to have to go back and rewatch this when I have more time to absorb. And I'm going to have to watch the rest of the story here (great-looking website, BTW).

Oh, this is awesome

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These are a few of my favorite things: Scar13

The time has come, the Queen's thrall said, to talk of Scar13....

I've been planning a "favorites" post about Scar for quite some time, but two things held me back: one, I'd promised not to overwhelm you with "favorites" posts since a lot of people come to my blog for other things; and two, I have such a large collection of Scar pics that I knew sorting through them to select favorites would be quite an undertaking. And it was. But it was well worth it.

IMO, Scar13 is just flat-out gorgeous, no matter what she's wearing (or not wearing), no matter what color (or style) her hair is this week. Just take a look at those beautiful lips, those glowing eyes, that apparently all-natural body. Yes, her body is scarred from a period in her history when she was a cutter; but she recovered from that darkness and now sees her scars as a sign of triumph over adversity - thus her chosen nickname. You can read more about this story on her MySpace page.

But anyway, on to the pictures. I didn't select these on any particular basis except what they do for me. There's some latex in here, some voicelessness, a suggestion of MC here and there. But for the most part, I chose them just because I think they're awesome.

The image above comes courtesy of photographer John Warner. Directly below, left to right, are shots by Allan Amato (where Scar is wearing Mother of London), Michael Helms (along with model Shakti), and Allan Amato again.

Next, from left to right, are shots by Karen Hsiao, Christine Kessler (Scar is wearing Fetish by Anna), and Karen Hsiao again.

Below are another shot by Christine Kessler (Scar is wearing HMS Latex this time), a pic from her MySpace page that doesn't list the photographer, and a pic by James Stolzenbach.

Lastly we have another photo from Michael Helms and one from J. Isobel de Lisle.

Scar has a gallery on Model Mayhem and at least a couple of lists dedicated to her. She doesn't have her own Deviant Art account, but you can find plenty of pictures there by searching on her name.

Tread softly because you tread on my dreams

"But I, being poor, have only my dreams. I have spread my dreams under your feet. Tread softly because you tread on my dreams."

Yeah, I'm one of those tasteless geeks who loved Equilibrium, but I'm also literate enough to know the quote above originated with William Butler Yeats, so maybe you'll cut me a little slack. Besides, that quote sums up the topic of today's post so nicely that I couldn't not use it.

I'm here to talk about dreams again, but this time it's waking dreams rather than sleeping dreams. Fantasies.

I'm not sure where I first discovered Angela Ryan. Maybe Deviant Art, maybe Model Mayhem, maybe somewhere else. I was immediately taken by her beauty and the sauciness of her expression. I started collecting pictures of her, eventually enough that I decided to have a look at her official website. And that's where reality set in.

Angela Ryan, in case you aren't already aware of this, is basically a porn star. I wasn't aware of this because I'd been collecting pictures from places like Deviant Art and Model Mayhem. I'd developed this mental image of her as a sexy/cool woman with a penchant for vintage clothing and occasional mild kink. I had not developed an image of her as a person who says things like, "I love the sexy way the latex rubs against my nipples. It makes me so hot." (Yes, I know she almost certainly doesn't write the site content herself, but work with me here).

From my very first forays into latex erotica, I've been steering away from the naked crotch shots and other truly X-rated material. I never thought much about why, except that naked crotch shots just seemed so...crass. Like bad boob jobs. On the other hand, I love shots, like the one above, that look pretty damn kinky (not to mention pretty damn phallic) but don't seem to involve actual pain. Pain is a huge turnoff for me...well, unless the subject is so deeply brainwashed that s/he doesn't notice it. But that's not what I'm talking about right now.

What I'm talking about is that I seem to have built some pretty elaborate fantasies around the models I like, and I didn't even notice I was doing it. At some deep level, I must have been imagining they were the kind of people I'd like to date or, failing that, at least to hang out with. I don't want to imagine them as stupid, or addicts, or proto-prostitutes hardened to every sex act our species ever discovered.

Writing it out this way, I see clearly how naive I've been. Then again, I saw that the moment I laid eyes on Angela Ryan's website. But I'm going to pretend I didn't see it, and I'm also going to pretend I'm not naive. After all, imagination is my online trade. How many of my fantasies are posted on the EMCSA already? How many more do I have in me? For me, inventing stories is almost as easy as breathing.

They say each of us has a whole world inside her or his head, and I'm making the most of mine.

Look what I found in my Easter basket this morning!

From Deviant Art: Photographer is John Tisbury and model is Iveta.

Another trigger enhancement

I'm still playing around with Virtual Hypnotist enhancements, as I discussed in yesterday's blog entry, and I've now discovered a way to make a short trigger ripple through your brain in the most delightful manner imaginable. First the code, then the explanation.

The "tonefreq" commands are the same as in yesterday's entry. I'm dropping the binaural beats from theta to delta, just for the duration of the trigger, then bringing them back up.

What's new today is the addition of changes in volume, speed, and pitch for the trigger. You can see the commands to change each of these settings in the image above, and I think they're pretty easy to understand. There are just two important things to note:

1. To make the trigger enhancement work properly, you need to undo everything you did, immediately after the trigger is spoken. That's what makes the trigger stand out so well in the context of the session.

2. Don't assume that the same values you see in my example will be the right ones for your session. You might have to play with them a bit. Go to your "Speech Synthesis" tab and make a note of your starting settings for volume, pitch, and speed. Your goal is make significant changes to those values without taking the changes too far to be effective. For instance, the maximum volume allowed by Virtual Hypnotist is 65535. If the value you put in for your volume change would take the volume up over 65535, it won't work; the volume will actually go down. And if the number you put in for your change takes the volume too close to 65535 and you play that thing through your earbuds, I promise you won't enjoy the results.

With that in mind, here are some general guidelines:

• If  your starting volume is somewhere in the middle range and you raise it by 20000, you should get good results.
• If your trigger is only one word, whatever your starting speed is, lower and raise it by exactly that number. If your trigger is two or three words, you'll have to play around with the values to find the right adjusted speed.
• Don't lower and raise the pitch by very much. A small number can make a huge difference.

 Sometime later today or tomorrow, I'll update my VH tutorial with more information about all of this. Be on the lookout.

A fortuitous discovery

I'm still tweaking my regular Virtual Hypnotist scripts, learning how to get the most from them, and last night I stumbled into an amazing discovery.

I was trying to adjust the frequency of the binaural beats I use during my bedtime session, trying to make it even more effective at sending me to sleep. I won't get into the technical details here (Feel free to e-mail me if you want those), but the gist of it is that I accidentally dropped the frequency from alpha to basement-level delta in one split second. Or, in layman's terms, I was cruising along at a comfortable forty miles per hour and then suddenly cut my speed to five miles per hour.

It was incredible. Even remembering it now, the next morning, I can still feel my arms growing deliciously loose and heavy, my thoughts freezing up like deer in headlights. I wasn't even trying, and I totally found the answer to my Jellybaby question. I'd never even tried such a low delta frequency before, but now I can only wonder why I hadn't.

I've been playing around with this new technique a little more this morning, and I've discovered even more coolness. You can make your trigger ohhh so much more effective if you drop the binaural frequency from alpha or theta to delta on the line just above the trigger, then raise it again immediately afterwards. See below for an example copied directly from my morning session.

If you're not accustomed to VH scripting yet, you can puzzle this out by taking a look at my tutorial. On the other hand, if you are accustomed to VH scripting, I'll just point out that the starting frequencies for this session are 128 on the left side and 133 on the right. As you can see, I'm using the trigger twice, dropping from theta to delta and back each time - but sticking to a slightly lower tone when I raise the frequency the second time.