How about some zombie humor to start your new year right?

This one takes a weirdly fetishistic turn somewhere around the halfway point. Enjoy!

Sketch Of The Dead

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What you miss when you only look at stick figures

We all know the model stereotype: tall and thin as a stick insect. And we all know that most fetish models don't meet the stereotype. For one thing, they tend to have huge, fake boobs. ;-/ But you already know I don't like those. Give me someone with a body that at least looks natural any day. I don't care about height or hair color or tattoos; I just want human-looking curves, like the women in this post.

Meet Io and Zoetica Ebb. They each have Model Mayhem pages, but if you like what you see here, you can find more pictures of them by name-searching on Deviant Art or by visiting Plastik Wrap, where they've both modeled; Artifice Clothing, where Io has modeled; stuntkid's blog, where Zoetica (along with Mosh and many others) has modeled; or Zoetica's blog, which has tons of pictures both professional and amateur. And yes, folks, Zoetica is every bit as cute in the amateur candid shots. I am so in love with this woman. ;-)



Ms. Ebb is also a cofounder of Coilhouse Magazine, which is entertaining in its own right, but sadly lacking in pictures of her.



There are plenty of pictures of both these ladies out there, if you're willing to hunt for them. I've just tried to select a few that represent the taste of my audience. I hope you like them as much as I do.

How to do it right, in my not-so-humble (not to mention completely unprofessional) opinion

Say you've got some pretty good graphics software, a smidge of talent, and a great big MC/robo kink. How do you turn out the kind of images you and others like you really want to see? After all, anyone can make a bug-eyed manga girl or a stiff-limbed Barbie doll. How do you come up with stuff like the images at left and below (which I hope you enjoy as much as I do)?

As you know, I spend a lot of time on Deviant Art and Model Mayhem; and I've seen a lot of good digital art and a hell of a lot of bad digital art. Here are a few observations I've made in the process.

First, if possible (and I realize it might not be), you should get a really good, versatile graphics program - or more than one. The image above and the first two rows below are by Valentina Kallias. As you can see, she makes enough money with her art to afford programs that can produce rust and crumbling stone effects - important for realism, especially since we all know how computer graphics tend to look too smooth and regular.

BTW, doesn't the second image below remind you of a certain Tabico story? ;-)



Of course, Kallias is a professional, and not everyone has the money to afford top-shelf graphics software. So what else can you do? Well, how about working with the "smooth and regular" effect, rather than against it? After all, we're talking about MC/robo fetishism here. You want your subjects to look depersonalized. So hide their faces and/or make it look like they've had all their humanity and individualism stripped away. That works so much better better than trying to give a Barbie doll realistic expressions.



If you explore Kallias' whole gallery on Deviant Art, you'll see plenty of cases where she did try the Barbie doll approach...and IMO failed miserably. So if you're determined to show your subjects' faces, the best route is to start with a live, expressive model rather than a computerized one. Michael O, another professional digital artist who has galleries on both Deviant Art and Model Mayhem, has been fortunate enough to work with some very talented models, including the spectacular Mosh. Even roboticized as they are, there's nothing Barbie-ish about any of these women.

Happy holidays! Here are my gifts to you.

Last week I discovered a new latex fashion designer, Artifice Clothing.There's lots of yumminess to be found on that site, but I was particularly struck by these three pictures. Placed in this order, they seem to tell an interesting little story, don't they? A little something to brighten your holiday mood, especially with all that green and gold. ;-)

The Merchant's Daughter: Get it while it's hot!

You know that new vampire hypnosis session from Lady Ru'etha that I reviewed on Sunday? Well she's got it up on her blog for free, for a very limited time, right here. Grab it now if you can, or come back for it later when she puts it on sale. It's so worth it!

Vampires! Vampires everywhere!

Not too long ago I was talking with Lady Ru'etha about her upcoming vampire-themed mp3, "The Merchant's Daughter." She's given me a preview copy, and I've mentioned it on my blog before; but I told her I wanted to wait and do a proper review when she made it available to the public. However, she encouraged me to go ahead and post it whenever I liked.

Now I know why. This morning I got an e-mail update from the Realm of Bliss Yahoo Group (Not a member yet? Well, get on it!) in which Lady Ru'etha announced her newest podcast. Wouldn't you know, it's all about vampires? Just the thing to put you in the holiday spirit! Of course, as she notes, December does include the longest night of the year...which leads me quite naturally to think of the great recent vamp flick 30 Days of Night, but I digress.
 
In the podcast Lady Ru'etha recommends several classic short stories that are available online, and she reads some of the best passages from them - without spoiling too much, I hasten to add. Then she goes on to give you the links in her show notes so you can read the full text for yourselves. She also recommends the Penguin Vampire Anthology, which I actually used to own (I traded it in at a used bookstore during a fit of temporary insanity; so if you bought yours there and it had star ratings beside the stories in the table of contents, you might well have gotten my old copy), and would love to own again. Nice to know it's still in print. Maybe I'll check Amazon and buy it again. Heh, maybe I'll even find my own book still floating around out there. ;-)

But back to "The Merchant's Daughter." This is the first in a series of vampire-themed hypnosis sessions that Lady Ru'etha has in the works. It's f/f, but I wouldn't be surprised if she makes other combinations available when she puts it online. Anyway, the session begins in the usual "Safe Space" and "Room of Doors," then leads you through a portcullis into a nonspecific past-time and past-place where you stop overnight in an unfamiliar village and run across a beautiful young lady...who does some decidedly unladylike things to you before it's all over with. She can be very convincing, you see. But don't worry; all the compulsions evaporate once you're back in the Room of Doors, so you can relax and just enjoy surrendering your will. Completely, if you like.

One of the coolest things I've discovered about Lady Ru'etha's mp3's is that every one you listen to feeds into every other one. Obviously, "Safe Space" prepares you for the adventures beyond the Room of Doors; but "Voice" prepares you to experience those adventures on an even deeper level; and I have a hunch that, if you let yourself really be bound to the Merchant's Daughter, you'll find it even easier to submit in other hypnotic circumstances. We'll see about that one. ;-) When I listened to the session again a little while ago in preparation for writing this post, I went very, very deep. It was lovely.

Lady Ru'etha has crafted a story here that's both brimming with traditional vampire tropes and completely original. I can't wait to see the response when she shares it with all of you. Be on the lookout for it.

[Edited to add a screencap from The Vampire Lovers, a movie based on the short story "Carmilla" that Lady Ru'etha talks about in her podcast. I'm currently trying to download the movie from YouTube, where it's broken into nine chunks; but, dammit, parts 4 and 5 are nowhere to be found! I hope the scene above didn't come from one of those two parts; I just found it via Google Images.]

How could I resist?

This isn't what I planned to blog about today. I planned to blog about a preview Lady Ru'etha shared with me of an upcoming mp3 called "The Merchant's Daughter." It's a vampire fantasy, and totally delicious. But I'll have to do that entry later today or else sometime tomorrow. When a certain mysterious e-mail friend shared this link with me, I knew I just had to pass it on to all of you fine folk.

My gosh, how could I not? Just look at that picture! That's an actual airline ad, and this page is full of this stuff!

Okay, actually, it's supposed to be a gallery of vintage stewardess pictures. But since when do stewardesses wear kinky fetish gear? Or miniskirts cut high enough (or slit high enough) to flash hot pants? Oh, and don't even get me started on the chick in the bolero. ;-)

It might not look like it, but...

...this is a teaser. ;-)

A Peek Beneath the Duct Tape: "Union, Reunion"

First of all, as many of you noticed, Allie is very much me. Yes, all of my protagonists are more or less me; but Allie is me to a larger extent than any of the others because a lot of this story is based on fact. More than you might think.

I really did belong to a sorority in college, and I really have had a few reunions with some of my former sisters. I came out to a couple of them before the first get-together because they were the two I knew would accept me, and I came out to the whole group at our final gathering. I didn't know then that it would be the final gathering; but for some reason, after it was all over, we agreed that we were beginning to feel awkward with each other and didn't care to meet again. To this day, I have no idea how much of that awkwardness was due my revelation; but it really hurts to think that might have played a part. I'm sure you can see that hurt, and that anger, playing out in my story.

Dianne was based on two different sisters, only one of whom came to the real reunions - and that one was totally supportive of me, I hasten to add. I made story-Dianne's reactions ambiguous just to heighten the drama. I don't know how my readers interpreted the things she said and did, but to me, they were ambiguous. I like the women she's based on far too much to make Dianne a "bad guy." I wanted her to be someone whose opinion really would matter to Allie, someone you could root for to escape.

The idea of Dianne's escaping, by the way, occurred to me well after I'd begun the story. I think it's a much better ending than the one I'd originally planned, which was the one you would all have guessed ahead of time. ;-) I hope I gave you a pleasant surprise when Allie let her go.

Of the other characters, only Tonya is based on a real person: someone I hope really did mellow later in life. Shannon and Mary Katherine represent different parts of myself, as I'm sure some of you realized. After all, I've explained many times how my fetish ties in with my growing up as the "good little girl" and wanting both a way out of that trap and a way deeper in.

Speaking of good little girls, some of my readers will have noticed that "Union, Reunion" might as well have been titled "Raging Id." This story gave me every chance I could have asked for to let my darkest passions fly free, and they really enjoyed it.

And now it's Easter egg time again. Looking at the artwork that accompanies this blog entry, I'm sure you can see where I got the idea for the vines around the cabin...but do you recognize the artist? I've blogged about him a couple of times before: Zdzisław Beksiński. There's a reason that road sign in the first chapter was missing a letter. ;-)

Of course, I've dropped a few other Easter eggs into the story, too; but I'll let you find those on your own. ;-P

Things you find when you're not looking

The other night I was poking around in my folder of saved Kumi Monster photos when I came across the image at left and wondered why the hell I didn't remember it, since it's just so freaking gorgeous.

Well, naurally, I then had to flip through all the images in that folder, just to see what other goodies I'd forgotten about. Below are a few of the best. Fortunately, each one already had a URL on it (though you have to look closely to see the one on the gel-head pic) so I don't even have to provide you with any extra links.

Just think of this as a little something to tide you over till the finale of "Union,Reunion" next weekend. ;-P

quickie fun

Last week, when I had a few minutes to spare and a burst of sudden inspiration, I cooked up a new grok session for Virtual Hypnotist. It's just five minutes long, but I promise, you can do one hell of a lot in that amount of time! The intent of "Grok Quickie" is to give you just a tiny taste of the "brainwashing machine" I've been talking about on my blog lately...which I'm still not going to share in full. Sorry. If you want to know how that one feels, you'll have to learn how to create your own. I have given you all the tools. ;-)

But in the meantime, head over to Ono Udont's Virtual Hypnotist Files to download the"Grok Quickie" and try it out for yourself. It's explicit but gender neutral, and you can use it with or without a toy. You might also want to record yourself chanting whatever mantras excite you most and use that as a background track.

Have fun!

mind change

Last weekend I said I'd finished the rough draft of "Union, Reunion," and that I intended to send Simon the first chapter this week and post another chapter each week until it was all online. Well, now I've changed my mind...but I think you'll like the new version better.

A few days later I realized that since I'd already posted the rough draft of the first chapter on my blog (twice, actually), my regular readers would have to wait two weeks to read anything really new. Plus, posting a chapter a week would mean my finale debuted right before Christmas, and a lot of people might be on vacation and not have any computer access. So in the end, I decided to send chapters one and two off to Simon for posting this weekend. Chapter three will go up the weekend of December 12, and then everyone will be happy.

BTW, has anyone else noticed that I tend to start my titles with letters near the end of the alphabet, like S, or in this case U? It's not a big issue, but it does mean that my stories are always near the bottom of the "What's New" list and don't get read very quickly. And I do like feedback. ;-P

I feel pretty, oh so pretty

I feel pretty and witty and gay, yes I do! Pretty, because just look what I'm working with. ;-) Witty, because I've finished the rough draft of "Union, Reunion" and have managed to tickle even even myself with the Easter egg I threw into the final section of the final chapter.* And gay, because...well, that one should be obvious. ;-)

There will be three chapters in all. I'll probably send the first one off to Simon sometime next week and follow my usual pattern of adding one in each update afterwards until I'm done.

*Here. Now don't say I never gave you nothin'.

trying to believe it's a *good* thing

My internet cable connection is semi-fucked up, so right now I never know if what I'm trying to access or do will go through. Still, that didn't stop me from writing a long, gabby e-mail response to my latest collaborator last night. I get so excited about mind-melding with my favorite EMC authors.

Plus, I'm about 90% finished with the rough draft of "Union, Reunion," and knowing that surfing the internet right now is more trouble than it's worth gives me incentive to stay off it and just write. Maybe. Anyway, I am planning to finish the rough draft by this weekend.

Oh, and BTW, the cable technician is coming to fix my connection later this week. I should be back to normal (well, as normal as I ever am) in time for the weekend.

Brainwashing is fun

I'm still discovering new ways to turn Virtual Hypnotist into a brainwashing machine. Thanks to advice from Follow the Watch, I can now raise and lower the volume of a background file in the middle of a session or even change from one background file to another.

Think about the implications: Your session can start slowly, innocently. Deceptively slowly and innocently. But once you get too deep to easily withdraw, once you realize how much pleasure you feel, a sinister note creeps into the session. The background mantra changes, perhaps only subtly at first, so that you're not sure it isn't just your imagination. But then you notice that the chant is getting louder, beginning to fill your head until you have no room for any thoughts but the ones it puts there. And now the words are changing again: noticeably, now that you have no will left to resist.

Perhaps the subliminal messages change at the same time. First they were just telling you to relax, but now they're telling you how horny submission can make you. And maybe now a message pops up in the middle of the screen, where once there was only a color tunnel. It's telling you to submit and obey, and it's growing larger by the minute. More insistent. But you can't look away because the voice that fills your head won't let you close your eyes except to blink, and the brainwashing machine is just too powerful to resist.

Not that you really want to resist, anyway.

But in the end, the voice finally allows you to close your eyes and rest. Then the background audio fades, the count back to wakefulness begins, and when you open your eyes, everything has vanished except the color tunnel.

My Virtual Hypnotist tutorial can tell you how to create all these effects and more, but I'll leave it to you to decide how to apply the knowledge. This time. ;-)

I was in love with her before this, but...

Holy crap, Tai looks hot in that first panel today! And the comic itself is hilarious - both today, and almost every day.

Do yourself a favor and check out Questionable Content.

BTW, Marten is only yelling because he's startled. He already knows Tai well, and his dad is gay.

Sinister fun

One of these days I'm going to write an EMC story based on my morning hypnosis session, making it just a tad more sinister than it is in real life. And it is pretty sinister in real life - at least, until I get to the suggestions, which are purely practical. But by the time I reach that point, I'm so deep that I can almost completely ignore them and just enjoy the thought that I'm being brainwashed.

You can turn Virtual Hypnotist into a pretty effective faux-brainwashing machine with a few simple steps:

1. Set the "brainwaves" loud enough for you to hear the hum.
2. Set the color tunnel to fill the whole screen, and reverse the direction of it so that the rays appear to be beaming straight into your head.
3. Use a central "video" image that flashes through words like "obey," "programmed," etc., and gradually increase the size of it through the course of the session.
4. Since you're actively using that image throughout the session, include commands wherever necessary to open or reopen your eyes and focus on it. (You should also include commands telling yourself you're being brainwashed, but that almost goes without saying, doesn't it?)
5. For maximum effect, create a background audio of yourself in trance, repeating mantras that are stimulating for you. If possible, use multiple tracks.

Information on how to do all this can be found in my VH tutorial.

My first time

So...what to say about my first personal trance with Lady Ru'etha? I have to admit that it's still a little vague to me, which is pretty funny, considering how I don't want to forget things in trance (unless temporarily in the middle of it all) and how clear the events of Wednesday morning are to me. Maybe it was the lateness of the hour, or maybe it was the act of being linked to Jukebox, who trances so deeply and easily and has no problem forgetting anything Lady Ru'etha wants him to forget. Who knows? Anyway, I've done my best to remember as much as I can, so I can share it with you all.

Let me begin by saying that now, after several days have passed, I'm glad Lady Ru'etha waited until everyone else had left except Jukebox and me. It's true that I was jonesing like crazy by that point, and it's true (as I said right there in front of Winterrose when I begged Lady Ru'etha to go ahead and drop me) that I'm a closet exhibitionist. But my first trance with her was indeed a very personal thing and was worth waiting for. Besides, I was probably able to go deeper without having to think about people I didn't know watching me. So thanks, Lady Ru'etha, for taking care of my comfort when I was too worked up to care for it myself. :-)

And now the details. Practically the moment the last guest left, she had me lie down with my head in Jukebox's lap, turned on the metronome, and gave me a selection of pocket watches to choose from. I picked a silver one with a soft finish, and I was both surprised and delighted that she was going with such classic tropes of hypnotism. Of course, I would have been just as surprised and delighted by anything else she'd chosen, but the familiarity of the metronome and pocket watch gave me a little thrill - and no doubt primed the pump a little further. And I was well primed by that point, having spent several hours watching her drop Jukebox, Reth, and Kitty. I must have been in and out of light trance several times already that night, and I knew it, but I also knew I wanted the "real thing," the deep and personal thing.

She held up the pocket watch and began to swing it gently, and I have absolutely no idea now what she said. I just know my eyes started to flicker almost instantly, and I fought to hold them open, enjoying the fight, enjoying knowing I was going to lose it, and enjoying knowing that Lady Ru'etha was enjoying it too. Finally fighting became too hard and I let my eyes do what they wanted to do. That felt so very nice. So very relaxing. So very natural.

Now, when you're deep in trance, you're so passive that it's almost impossibly hard to say or do anything on your own, even shifting to make yourself more comfortable. So Lady Ru'etha has a habit of commanding the people she hypnotizes, "Tell me something you need me to know." She started with Jukebox, and he said (at least, I think this is when he said it) that he hoped I'd enjoy my experience. Then she asked me what I needed her to know. Well, I'd known she'd be asking this and had already thought of some of the things I might want to tell her; but when the time came, I couldn't think of a single damn thing. I'd gone so deep, so quickly, that even when she commanded me, responding took more effort than I had to give. So I mumbled that I was too comfortable to talk, and she had me imagine the control room in my head and the cable running between my brain and my mouth. Then she had me temporarily disconnect them. That relieved all the obligation to talk, and for the rest of that trance (and, to a large extent, the later ones), all I really wanted to do was go "mmm hmm" and "uh huh."

Then Lady Ru'etha told me she was connecting a cable between the back of Jukebox's neck and mine, and that his trance was flowing down into me. I felt the cable very clearly, and I knew it was the perfect image for me, with my robo-kink. It didn't even occur to me until I read Jukebox's blog that the image had been as much fun for him as for me, but that makes me very happy. And you know, even today I can still feel that cable if I think about it. I wonder if he can, too. I'll bet he can.

A little later, Lady Ru'etha installed the power switch and tested it a few times; but honestly, I was so limp already that I couldn't tell much difference after she pressed it. I had no idea it would become so hotly effective the next day when I wasn't in trance.

At some point I think she must have had me sit up, though I don't clearly remember doing it. I just remember being upright (I think) when she told me that I tried to so hard to be a good girl (which I've said here and elsewhere; it's a big key to why I developed this particular fetish), and that that was okay; she gave me permission to be a good girl. And that was absolutely wonderful, because I do wrestle with this part of my personality. In real life, it's sometimes appropriate to be the good girl and sometimes inappropriate; but it takes effort for me to be assertive. Here, though, I could just give in to my deepest self. She gave me permission. And by giving permission, she assumed the right to command me - which she absolutely had, but saying it that way concretized it. I understood all that, even in the depths of trance, and thrilled to it.

There were other commands, and there were mantras, maybe even some I don't remember at all. Then Lady Ru'etha woke me and Jukebox up, not with the five-count I'd come to expect from her mp3's, but with a simple "wake" command. It amazed me that I could wake up so quickly and easily from such a deep trance with a single word. But of course, I also learned to fall that quickly and easily, too. ;-)

She tranced me several times that night, until even when I was awake, all I wanted to do was like with my head back, resting on the top of the futon, and my hands resting in her and Jukebox's hands or on their thighs. It was all just so very comfortable, so very nice, so very relaxing. I told them I didn't think I'd ever snuggled between two people like that, except with my parents when I was a kid.

Like Lady Ru'etha says, warm.

Subconscious allies

Lady Ru'etha told me Tuesday night that there would come a point when my subconscious would decide whether or not to ally itself with her...or maybe she just said it would decide to ally with her; I don't quite remember now. Anyway, her meaning was clear: if my subconscious made that decision, it would take me into deeper and more exciting hypnotic experiences than I'd ever had before.

I suppose this (and a lot of my other experiences that night) were priming the pump, but I didn't mind a bit. I wanted to be primed. I wanted those deeper and more exciting levels of trance. And hoo boy, did I get them. :-)

The alliance happened Wednesday morning, during the several long hours of trance I spent with her and Jukebox before we decided to go to IHOP. And the mere fact that I was content to hang around trancing instead of looking for something to eat tells you just how much I was enjoying myself. I'm a hobbit, remember: I love my food. But there's food, and there's food, you know? ;-)

I won't go into much detail about the morning, but I will share this interesting tidbit. At one point I told Lady Ru'etha that I wanted to see if the famous old "floating hand" trick would work on me. I was already in trance with my eyes closed, and she began stroking my hand and arm, telling me they were getting lighter and lighter. They didn't move at first, but she said that for some people the motion started very slowly, so I didn't worry. And soon enough, my arm began to stir...just a little to begin with, then more and more. And once it was in the air, it began to lift more and more quickly until my fingers were pointed loosely at the ceiling (because she said that was where the strings were attached).

Then Lady Ru'etha told me to open my eyes and look at my hand. I did, and then I caught a glimpse of Jukebox out of the corner of my eye. He was on the other side of her, and his hand was in the air with fingers pointed, just like mine. Later Lady Ru'etha told us that our arms had gone up almost in tandem, even though both of us had our eyes closed, and that when they'd first lifted off they'd almost touched each other before turning upward. I guess that's part of whole neck cable phenomenon, which I don't want to examine too closely; I'd rather just enjoy it.

The subconscious alliance phenomenon has some pretty interesting effects, too. In the time before that happened, even while visiting Lady Ru'etha, my conscious mind was always very active in my trance experiences. For instance, listening to my trigger via Virtual Hypnotist, I'd think, "Now my eyes will roll up and close" - and then they would. Not that it would have been easy to resist, but my conscious mind was involved. Just as it was involved in my first trance with Lady Ru'etha, which I'm going to write about tomorrow.

But back to the subconscious alliance. Lady Ru'etha blogged about "installing a power switch" in me, which is something she does with all her pets. It's at the back of the neck. All she has to do is press it, and you "turn off." Now, this isn't the same as going completely blank...at least, not for me. But it does mean dropping straight down into trance and going blissfully limp - very, very quickly.

And now we come to my first Wednesday blog entry. ;-) Lady Ru'etha had teased me before my visit that she might command me to blog in trance, and I'd loved the idea. So after we got back from breakfast, we booted up her computer and I signed into Blogger and my e-mail program (Someone knows why! ;-)). And because Lady Ru'etha was busy in the kitchen while I logged in and I wasn't sure when we'd do the blog thing, I also pulled up a Deviant Art picture I wanted to show her. She came up and admired it with me, and I started to say something about it. Then, right in the middle of my sentence, she pressed the back of my neck.

I barely had time to say, "Here we go," or something like that. I don't even remember what I said, and I doubt she heard me since I was already on my way down, from the very first word. No time to think, "Now I will fall into trance," just boom. Even if I'd wanted to resist, I would have had to do it after going down, because (as she said many times that day) she had me. My subconscious mind was allied with her, and my consciousness was just along for the ride.

Oh, I did know what was happening, even as she deepened me until I was lying with my head on my arms in front of the keyboard. I knew what was happening and loved it. But I was in a deeper, more blissful trance than anything I'd experienced prior to that visit. In fact, I was absolutely stupefied. I couldn't even have thought of a title (such as it was) if she hadn't been standing right there, commanding me to write. I had to write because I had to please her, and when I was too helpless to think of anything on my own, I just copied down what she was whispering in my ear.

And even now that I'm back home and several days have passed, my subconscious is still firmly on Lady Ru'etha's side. She gifted me with a few mp3's while I was there, including a preview of one of her upcoming vampire sessions; and she'll know what I mean when I say the alliance is still going strong! The rest of you will just have to wonder...and anticipate a great experience of your own when that mp3 debuts online. I don't know when she plans to release it, but the copy she gave me seems entirely finished, and entirely fantastic. I'll be sure to blog about it in more detail when it becomes available so you'll know what you're in for. ;-)

In the meantime, keep watching this space for "My First Time."

Lady Ru'etha weighs in, and Jukebox weighs in *again* :-)

I have to say, I'm really tickled to see all the commotion our little get-together has caused. ;-) And I also appreciate the care Lady Ru'etha and Jukebox have taken with what they've shared and what they've left to our readers' imaginations. After all, I might be a closet exhibitionist, but I'm also (somewhat to my dismay) a semi-decorous Southern belle. So, that being the case, I'll just say that an absolutely fucking incredible amount of fun can be had even when everyone keeps their clothes on. ;-P

If you're starting with my blog, Lady Ru'etha's post about the visit is here, and Jukebox's second post is here.

I'll try not to repeat anything the two of them have said; but Lady Ru'etha will be amused to know that not only didn't I realize when she began to actively guide Jukebox and me in our reinforcement game, but I entirely forgot the metronome she used during my first trance - and even half-forgot her using the pocket watch! Really, all I remember clearly about the first night's trances was lying in Jukebox's lap and actually feeling that golden cable running between us.

I do remember plenty about the non-trance moments, though, and I giggled to read in Jukebox's post that he actually noticed my head whipping back and forth and understood that I was trying to be polite! I would have sworn he was too deeply entranced (or fractionated when not in trance) to know what I was doing at all. ;-) But he knew a lot more than I thought he did, and not just about my perceptions. I guessed at some of what Lady Ru'etha was doing with the two of us, but not all of it.

I was very pleased with the collar and the neural net and the light-and-sound machine; but I can't think of anything to add about those bits at the moment. Maybe this weekend. I do plan to blog about "subliminal allies" on Saturday, anyway, so watch this space.

In the meantime, I'll leave you with one more amusing note. I had several hours of travel time to and from Chez Ru'etha, so I just shuffled all the songs on my mp3 player and let it do what it wanted. Well, apparently, what it wanted was to make me grin a lot - first in anticipation of what I was about to experience, and then in remembrance of what I had experienced. Here's a sample of its most grin-worthy offerings:

* "Zombie" by the Cranberries
* "Welcome to Paradise" by Green Day
* "Freak on a Leash" by Korn
* "Banditos" by the Refreshments (Stumped? Think about the first few lines of the song)

All in all, it was a great visit, and I can't wait to do it again!

Ah, Jukebox has posted, too! :-D

I figured he would have, but I wanted to make my own entry before I saw what he had to say. So here you go. The only thing I'll add to his excellent (and entirely truthful) report is that "codile" is "docile." ;-) It really does get very hard to type when you're in trance. And hitting that shift key at the same time as another letter is damn near impossible - except when typing Lady Ru'etha's name because, well, you can't lowercase her name. That just wouldn't be right at all. ;-P

THE END...of chapter one :-)

So, I'm home now...after giving many of you a thrill, I hope. ;-) Jukebox is still with Lady Ru'etha and intends to write his own blog entry about my little drop-in sometime later. I can't wait to see what he says, especially since I know he had at least three times as much fun as I did. And I had quite a lot of fun. Quite a lot. :-D

I've been trying to figure out how to blog about this ever since I kissed the two of them goodbye (Jukebox will be tickled to know he's the first guy I've kissed since somewhere around 1991) , but I'm afraid I'm not much closer to organizing my thoughts now than I was then. And I can't even blame it on the fact that I've just finished reviewing the pictures and videos we took while I was there: an act that put me right back into trance again - though not as deep as Jukebox went, watching the video I took of him - even when he was just viewing it on the little screen on the back of my camera! Bless his heart, he really is every bit as much of a tranceslut as he says he is. And he looks so adorable like that!

Lady Ru'etha's pretty adorable, too: so mischievous, and yet so completely scrupulous. In fact, I practically had to beg her to get sinister with me. But she did when I asked. Ohh, yes, she did. ;-) I can't wait to see what she comes up with after she's had more time to think about it!

So...a few quick details in this blog entry, then more later after I've had time to process.

I have now met several of Lady Ru'etha's friends and/or pets, including Reth from EMCSA, Spot/Kitty (whom I gave a mini-makeover and who shrugs so cutely when coming up from trance), and Winterrose (with whom I engaged in a bit of mutual admiration). I got to watch Lady Ru'etha put all of them except Winterrose under. In fact, I got to watch her put them under several times, without her doing anything to me because that's just how very ethical she is.

Well, let's just say I really learned to sympathize with the protagonist of Transylvanian Concubine. ;-/ Of course, I didn't tell the rest of them that until they'd been around me long enough to know I wasn't likely to stake Lady Ru'etha to my floor and force her to force me to do her bidding. ;-p

Lady Ru'etha didn't hypnotize me until everyone except Jukebox had left, but in the meantime I got to enjoy plenty of world-class geekery with the others. We talked about everything from Dr. Who to Lord of the Rings to Watchmen to Lovecraft to Gaiman to Star Trek to Star Wars to hell-if-I-can-remember, but there was plenty more. But then she hypnotized me, and hypnotized me again, and hypnotized me again - and, well, you get the picture. :-) Eventually I became so conditioned that she could drop me in the middle of a sentence just by touching the back of my neck. That was awesome.

But the most awesome part of all, I think, was when the three of us recreated a scene from one of the "Lulu and Bex" teasers on Hypnofantastico's site. Jukebox and I sat facing each other with him dangling a pocket watch between us and Lady Ru'etha beside us, taking video and interjecting her own suggestions while we reinforced each other's trances by repeating the same mantras. Eventually the pocket watch dropped quite literally out of the picture (I didn't realize that until I watched the video just now, since I was too deep at the time to care) and Lady Ru'etha told Jukebox and me just to stare into each other's eyes and keep falling deeper as we each saw how deep the other had gone.

In case I haven't made it clear yet, watching Jukebox in deep trance is an incredible experience...and so is watching myself, I'm happy to say. :-)

I can't thank Lady Ru'etha enough for being willing to do all she did for me. She fulfilled what has been very nearly a lifelong dream for me, and I don't think the dream is over yet. Mmmm. :-)

But that's all for tonight. Sweet dreams, everyone.

i am with Lady Ru'etha

i am a good thrall. i am with Lady Ru'eth and Jukebox. Totally obedient. Must type. Deeply s feels so good. so obedient now. deeper and deeper. oh god. collar. good thrall. mmmmmmmm. must type. must obey. good girl. captured. obedient. g. obeying now. good girl. mmmmmm. so nice. blissful. passive. happy. ehtnthralled.

I will soon be having an adventure

Watch this space....

Happy Sunday

I just found the picture at left in Perry Gallagher's gallery over at Deviant Art. I think the model had a lovely MC vibe, like she's posing and smiling because she's been told to pose and smile, and that's the only thing in her extremely empty head at the moment.

On an (only mostly) unrelated note, be sure to check out Jukebox's most recent blog entry. Holy crap!

A little robot goes a long way

I'm not really a fan of Beyonce's music, but there is one thing about her I really like: her robot fetish. I've read about it and seen a video or two, and the fetish is pretty damn apparent - not only in her costumes but even in some of her gown choices.

Beyonce wore the outfit at right during a recent BET Awards show. It opened up to reveal, well, a more revealing costume - and also opened Beyonce up to charges of idea-stealing from Kylie Minogue. (Gah, I can't believe I just wrote that sentence in this blog!).

Anyway, while exploring the links above - purely in the name of robot fetishism, I assure you - I ran across the video below. Damn, if only I could find an original version! This is just incredible.



BTW, the robot suit Beyonce sports here is a takeoff not of the Metropolis robot at left above, but of a famous design by Thierry Mugler:

I got nothing...yet

But just you wait until this time next week!

So *that's* how you pronounce "Nyarlathotep"!

Or at least, that's how someone thinks you pronounce it. It's not like we can dig up ol' HPL for a definitive answer.*

Anyway, this. is. brilliant.



*Well, not unless we dig up Herbert West first

Better, perhaps, than you've been led to believe

It seems to be an all-video weekend for me...so far, anyway. Who knows what else I might think to post before Sunday's end? But in the meantime, there's this. Friday night I stumbled across a reference to The Cell, a surrealistic horror/crime drama starring the mind-boggling combination of Vince Vaughan, Jennifer Lopez, and Vincent D'Onofrio.

Now, despite what the critics said when it came out, I actually enjoyed this movie. A lot. For me, it captured the literally-anything-can-happen horror of a real nightmare, played intelligently with dream symbolism, and (highlight for a mid-level spoiler about the ending) [allowed the heroine to kill the bad guy entirely on her own]. And once my mind had turned back to the movie, I remembered a wonderfully kinky MC scene that occurs maybe a third of the way in.

A quick bit of background before I share the clip: Lopez plays a counselor who inserts herself into the dreams of catatonic patients - with only the aid of some sketchy technology since, appearances to the contrary, this is not a supernatural film. D'Onofrio is a serial killer who's fallen into a coma, and Vaughan is the detective who recruits Lopez to enter D'Onofrio's dreams so they can find his last victim before she dies. Unfortunately, "Catherine" ends up falling prey to the killer while in his mind, and he run some kind of psychological voodoo on her that brings her under his control. Thus, Vaughan has go "go in after her." Just remember what I said about the ending, okay? ;-)



Now, if you want to see how this scene plays out, here's the next bit - but be warned: it's pretty damn squirmy.



I really like Lopez's eyes during this second clip, where she's looking just a little upward: not enough to count as an eyeroll, but suggestive of one. Of course, me being me, I'd rather have had her eyes swirling with an oil-slick sheen rather than simply being black. Then, when she begins to cry, the oil slick could have washed away in her tears.

Still, that's just me; the scene is awesome exactly as it is. If only it could have gone on longer.

Happy Halloween

Lake monster is GO

Sorry I'm a little late with my Wednesday post, but at least I have a couple of goodies for you:

1) the news that I've finished the second chapter of "Union, Reunion" and begun the third (and final) chapter. The lake monster bridges the two, and is now written in rough draft form.

2) This!

just this once

I would never even have noticed this yellow story, much less bothered to read it, if Jukebox hadn't specifically told me I'd like it. And I sooo did. :-) Of course, it didn't hurt that I'd just listened to Lady Ru'etha's Robotics 1.02 a few hours earlier. And that Jukebox almost seems to have written this story with all my personal hottest fetish buttons in mind.

"Dixie Pixie"! Haw!

Robotic Transformation Ongoing....

Lady Ru'etha called me again yesterday. She and Jukebox and I have something very exciting in the works, but I probably won't tell you what it is until afterwards. Either of them might, though, so keep an eye on their blogs. ;-)

In the meantime, Lady Ru'etha has also given me a review copy of the second mp3 in her Robotic Transformation series: Antivirus. This session builds on both the "Safe Space" recording (included with the Robotics 1.02 package) and Robotics 1.01: Initialization. After "Safe Space" and "Robotics 1.01" install your robotic programming, the "Antivirus" program helps protect you from unscrupulous hypnotists and other sneaky types who'd influence you in a way that you wouldn't want or need if you'd been given a choice.

Listening to the opening sections of "Antivirus," I found myself half afraid that I'd find some unwelcome surprises in my own mind, but thank goodness I didn't. On the other hand, the program did reaffirm that I've been unhealthily influenced by some people around me and by some of what I see and read online. And interestingly enough, even a couple of hours after I'd finished the session, I continued to recognize and correct my unthinking acceptance of other people's points of view, even about things as mundane as what movies I "ought" to like. That "error flag" system of Lady Ru'etha's really works! And how much more effective will it be after I've listened to the session several times? I really do want to be less gullible, and I've discovered that one key to change through hypnosis is really wanting it. That's not the only key, but it's an important one.

Fortunately, Lady Ru'etha makes the "antivirus program" very appealing by tying it, time after time, to the idea that it will help the robotic you function at optimal performance. Plus, it will please your programmer. ;-) But for those of you who like to live a little closer to the edge than I do, Lady Ru'etha is also working on a "Security Backdoor" mp3 which will allow her - and her alone - to breach the antivirus program and have her way with you. She says this program will come with a ton of disclaimers. ;-P

As for me, I'm looking forward to the "Skins" session, which she says will allow you to customize the look of your robotic self. I would so love to be able to imagine myself with silver skin and eyes!

But one other thing before I go. Remember when I talked about listening to Lady Ru'etha's "Voice" session and how delightfully deep it took me? Well, it turns out that she has that recording available for the public, as well. I recommend it very, very highly. :-)

that look

I really do feel sorry for Apnea. I could tell she had some sort of issues going on, long before I ever started reading her blog. And she posted the image at left (along with several others) as evidence of how she looks when she's in a deep depression and/or not feeling much of anything at all. So I do have a lot of sympathy for her.

But at the same time, I have to admit that that blank, passive stare hits me in a way her more lively pictures don't. Those of you who follow my blog won't need any explanation; you probably feel the same, or you wouldn't be here.

So here are a few more blank stares that, as far as I know, don't have any sad stories behind them. The model is PXE, or at least that's the name she goes by on Deviant Art. She seems to be a vibrant person overall, but I can't help noticing that there's something interesting going on with her eyes and/or expression in many of her photos. Make of that what you will...especially the second image, which is just begging to have a story written about it!